Now, this is post is going to be equivalent to ripping off a band-aid lol. I've been pushing back on writing this post for a while now. Not sure if anyone really follows along on my obnoxious instagram stories when I have the pleasure to run my mouth lol. Something that I glazed over is the topic of bloggers/ influencers like myself essentially "oversharing" their lives and stepping out a little too much about their personal lives. I was blabbing about how I think others shouldn't really get too "deep" about their lives but you know what, I wanna eat my words. I don't know who I thought I was a month ago when I was taking about that. I established this blog to be somewhat of a community that I can share my thoughts, help and hopefully inspire other women like me that may or may not be going through the same thing.
It dawned on me how double sided this whole social media thing can be without authentically sharing what is actually going on personally, rather than just sharing curated photos without any real substance. Thank god for stories though, at least through those I'm pretty much the real me on it! I guess that's the fun of social media, creating something that is fun and lighthearted. Some of this is going to be hard to share, but I honestly feel that what I have been going through can help someone, even if its just one person who happens to read this. Let's play the good news bad news game to make this a little easier. Starting with the good news first, obviously. So without further ado, let's get this show on the road.
THE GOOD NEWS: It's no surprise to you if you've been follow along on my instagram that I now have a job again (praise god!) It was completely unexpected how I landed the job too; it was like it was pre-orchestrated to happen. Clearly, I am a firm believe that everything does happen for a reason. About a month ago, Ride Element invited me to one of their classes; they had a "pop-up shop" event with a Fort Lauderdale boutique, The Wander Shop. I've met the owner Marisa over the summer when I stoped by her new store front location. Right as I opened the door, I was surprised that she remembered me!
After the class I couldn't help but stop by their booth and shop around. The only issue I had the fact that I hardly had any money. Major broke college girl vibes, honestly this is the story of my life, I should write a memoir, kidding! So in classic Jillian fashion, I was running my mouth to her about how I wish I could shop till I essentially drop, but since i'm not working, it's a lot harder to do so. Just like that she asked if I wanted to work at her shop! If this has taught me anything, just speak your mind, it could get you places! Two days after the event I met with her for coffee and I was hired.
I know I have only been working at the Wander Shop for less than a month now, but it hasn't even felt like work, it's so much fun working for a small business! I have the creative freedom to merchandise the story how I feel is necessary, create content for the boutiques instagram and so much more. Not to mention, my boss is the true definition of a girl boss. She's constantly getting so much done in one day, her energy is infections and inspiring! The clothes aren't exactly my typically style, but that's the best part. Each day I go into work, with the chance to push boundaries with my own style and the stores to cultivating it as my own.
THE BAD NEWS: Hmmm.. okay so here goes nothing. I believe it's been a little over two weeks since this happened. Anyways, I broke up with my high school boyfriend a few weeks ago. Writing this seems almost surreal, I mean clearly when we first started dating I wouldn't even begin to phantom this happening, but all good things must come to an end. We've been together for somewhat of three years, which is a long time for two kids haha. This choice I made clearly wasn't easy, but it was for the best.
Luckily, it wasn't a nasty breakup ending in bad blood between the two of us, it was just us drifting apart and becoming two different people. I think i'm becoming comfortable with this change in my personal life and will elaborate more upon this in the near future. When it comes to getting over a breakup, I feel like now more than ever girls feel that their world is ending and nothing good can come from it, I want to share how to get over one in a healthy way and how their is so much self improvement to be done! So stay tuned. But, i'm surprisingly handling this all very well and I hope just the same for him! All good things everyone, it's a learning experience!
Glad I can have the time to chat with you all. Until next time!